Losing myself

I miss myself.
I miss the old me who didn’t let anyone get too close.
I miss the old me who wasn’t afraid to say no.
I miss the old me who was truly happy.
I regret letting myself down for others.
Letting them take me for granted.
Putting their happiness before mine.
Now, I’m completely drained, left with no energy.

I feel like I'm lost.
I don't think it's easy to bring myself back.
I can only correct myself and change, but the old me is Lost Forever, I guess.
I hope that one day, everything will change.


2 Corinthians 5:17 –
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here."

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